I apologize for such a gap between posts but a lot has been going on in my life in just one week. When you’re faced with the biggest heartbreak of your life your left feeling alone, empty, depressed, and deserted. I was open for temptation and only negative thoughts surrounded me. I had no plan and no hope. I had no happiness and very sore, red eyes. That feeling like you’ve been drug through a dessert then left to die. God broke me down, and nothing made sense. I struggled to make it through each day without just walking away from everything. Do I accept this for the new norm or make a drastic change? Where is God? What is next? Why is this even happening? I lost all control of something I’d spent years building. I couldn’t just trust that everything was going to be okay because I’d never been more alone or afraid. I was convinced the only thing I could do was pick up the thousands of memories shattered on the ground and decide which way to walk next, never to look back. My heart couldn’t possibly hurt any more than it already was, and that’s when god sent me an angel. A coworker of mine came to my desk at work and thanked me for not being afraid to be a Christian. She pointed out my calendar that had monthly verses handing on my wall that said, “Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding” Proverbs 3:5. I’d never felt more proud as a Christian in my life than I did in that moment. Someone was thanking me for not being afraid what others may think and for being brave. This is all it took for me to reread that verse in a much brighter light. I instantly became happier and full of hope. I believed, and still do believe that whatever God has planned will be best and that I can put all of my trust into him and his plan. I couldn’t smile amongst the pain if there was not a God full of grace and love. On this rock, I will stand. Forevermore.