When God sends an angel. 

I apologize for such a gap between posts but a lot has been going on in my life in just one week. When you’re faced with the biggest heartbreak of your life your left feeling alone, empty, depressed, and deserted. I was open for temptation and only negative thoughts surrounded me. I had no plan and no hope. I had no happiness and very sore, red eyes. That feeling like you’ve been drug through a dessert then left to die. God broke me down, and nothing made sense. I struggled to make it through each day without just walking away from everything. Do I accept this for the new norm or make a drastic change? Where is God? What is next? Why is this even happening? I lost all control of something I’d spent years building. I couldn’t just trust that everything was going to be okay because I’d never been more alone or afraid. I was convinced the only thing I could do was pick up the thousands of memories shattered on the ground and decide which way to walk next, never to look back. My heart couldn’t possibly hurt any more than it already was, and that’s when god sent me an angel. A coworker of mine came to my desk at work and thanked me for not being afraid to be a Christian. She pointed out my calendar that had monthly verses handing on my wall that said, “Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding” Proverbs 3:5. I’d never felt more proud as a Christian in my life than I did in that moment. Someone was thanking me for not being afraid what others may think and for being brave. This is all it took for me to reread that verse in a much brighter light. I instantly became happier and full of hope. I believed, and still do believe that whatever God has planned will be best and that I can put all of my trust into him and his plan. I couldn’t smile amongst the pain if there was not a God full of grace and love. On this rock, I will stand. Forevermore.

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11 comments

  1. megzie212 · April 12, 2016

    I’m so glad you posted again! It’s amazing how God really sent that woman to you to remind you to be strong –God definitely blessed you with His joy through her 🙂

    I can’t imagine what you’ve been through but have faith and stay strong! God will get you through

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    • itsfaithbychoice · April 12, 2016

      Thank you meg. Prayers appreciated.

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      • megzie212 · April 12, 2016

        Ok! What can I pray for you specifically?

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      • itsfaithbychoice · April 12, 2016

        For God to work in my boyfriends heart and help us through this rut were in. I know I’m a complete stranger but I think you could relate. Just heartbreaking.

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      • megzie212 · April 12, 2016

        Ok I’ll pray for you definitely! Yes I can relate

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  2. Katey · May 3, 2016

    I just came across your blog and I just hope you are doing okay and are sticking to your faith!

    I can relate to what you are going through, I lost the man I thought I was going to marry and all I could ask God was why. I stopped listening to Him and stopped seeing those everyday reminders of His path that I was supposed to be following. I let myself ignore His word. Which lead to me begging for this man back that had left me. I didn’t know how I was going to live. I thought my life was over and I just lost the one person that was meant for me. I did things Im notproud of, tried bringing his parents on my side instead of letting them trust their own son and other things that don’t represent the Christian woman I have built myself to be.

    Once I stopped and turned back to Him though…He showed me things I was too blinded by hurt to see before. It was hard to accept but He showed me what my worth was, and how I wasn’t living up to it if I had to beg for a man back in my life. He showed me that I deserve a man that will put me as a priority in is life. A man that will never break my heart that this man had done to me. A man that will have the same values and beliefs as me and will only help grow my faith more, but together with him…..if this man is dumb enough to leave then just know that God has an amazing plan for your life just around the corner. Things will be okay and the pain will eventually go away. It takes time but you just have to force yourself to smile through everyday. Eventually you’ll realize one day that that smile is truly real and you’ll realize that you are okay. You have survived something you didn’t think you would and you will feel free-er than you ever have….you are in my thoughts and prayers girl and I really hope to see you post again soon, you have a talent for speaking of God’s word in your everyday life

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  3. Katey · May 3, 2016

    I just came across your blog and I am in love. You have so many encouraging and uplifting words to say! I am sorry to hear about the heartbreak you are going through but here’s some advice, girl-to-girl, I once went through a heartbreak where the man I thought I was going to marry left me. I was completely blindsided and devastated. I went through the exact same feelings that you described above. I even left myself stoop so low to the point of me begging for this man back. I thought getting him back was the only way to heal the pain. But what I didn’t realize was this was all part of God’s plan for me and He had an amazing thing right around the corner for me, and He does for you too. Do not let a man bring you down to the point where you forget your own worth. You should never be begging for a man back, because if that man was truly the one for you, he would realize the treasure that you are and would never let you go. The pain gets easier I promise. You just have to force a smile on your face every single day and dive into His word for your strength to get through every single day. Soon you will realize that smile isn’t so fake and each day will become easier.

    You are in my prayers girl and I really hope you post again soon. Pick yourself up, hold that chin high and show that guy what an amazing girl he is missing out on now! You can and will make it through this hard time, just as long as you keep God right by your side.

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    • itsfaithbychoice · May 3, 2016

      Do you have an email or Facebook where we can talk more? You have no idea how much I needed that right now. I’m crying at work (not in a bad way!) because you absolutely hit it right on the nail!

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      • Katey · May 3, 2016

        Yes! You can email me anytime at kateyjo95@gmail.com

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      • itsfaithbychoice · May 3, 2016

        I will after work!! I’m so thankful God sent you 🙂 And I will post again. I have a passion for writing and sharing things God puts on my heart. My head has just been all over the place in the last month I haven’t been able to concentrate on much.

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  4. Katey · May 3, 2016

    I completely understand! I cannot wait to hear from you and I’m always glad to see how God works in mysterious ways! ☺

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