When God sends an angel. 

I apologize for such a gap between posts but a lot has been going on in my life in just one week. When you’re faced with the biggest heartbreak of your life your left feeling alone, empty, depressed, and deserted. I was open for temptation and only negative thoughts surrounded me. I had no plan and no hope. I had no happiness and very sore, red eyes. That feeling like you’ve been drug through a dessert then left to die. God broke me down, and nothing made sense. I struggled to make it through each day without just walking away from everything. Do I accept this for the new norm or make a drastic change? Where is God? What is next? Why is this even happening? I lost all control of something I’d spent years building. I couldn’t just trust that everything was going to be okay because I’d never been more alone or afraid. I was convinced the only thing I could do was pick up the thousands of memories shattered on the ground and decide which way to walk next, never to look back. My heart couldn’t possibly hurt any more than it already was, and that’s when god sent me an angel. A coworker of mine came to my desk at work and thanked me for not being afraid to be a Christian. She pointed out my calendar that had monthly verses handing on my wall that said, “Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding” Proverbs 3:5. I’d never felt more proud as a Christian in my life than I did in that moment. Someone was thanking me for not being afraid what others may think and for being brave. This is all it took for me to reread that verse in a much brighter light. I instantly became happier and full of hope. I believed, and still do believe that whatever God has planned will be best and that I can put all of my trust into him and his plan. I couldn’t smile amongst the pain if there was not a God full of grace and love. On this rock, I will stand. Forevermore.


Figuring out strengths.

So I’ve recently joined my first online book club with Christian author, Holley Gerth. On her blog, myself and hundreds of other women are reading “You’re Already Amazing.” We just finished our first week and today we were asked to define our God given strengths.

Whenever I read this chapter and reviewed the Life Growth guide, I couldn’t see that I had any strengths listed, or any at all for that matter. I really couldn’t figure out how I could possibly be used in God’s kingdom and this is something I’ve struggled with ever since graduating from college last May. What exactly is my purpose now…I’m no longer a student and now there’s this pressure of having to have everything figured out.

During work today I was thinking about this again and I still had no idea. I decided to pray during my lunch break, then I looked at the list again- protective! It mind as well been in BOLD because it stood out immediately! I believe protective is perfect, because I have always been pulled to defend and PROTECT those that everyone else looks down upon. Whether this be a child being bullied, or an adult that everyone gossips about, I’ve always been drawn to these types of people. I always want to comfort them and be there for them because I’ve been on the other side of the attacks, I know what it’s like to feel alone and a target for other’s pleasure.

God loves everyone! In the book of Matthew it talks about God loving the least of these…I believe for myself, this is the least of these that I am to love. Those who are whispered about and laugh at, those that have nothing or no one. I am to defend and protect these. I am to pray for these and strengthen these through the Word.

We can’t face the enemy on our own and I often think back to my days in elementary school. I wish that I’d known then what I know now. I wish someone would have been teaching me to pray for those who are against me and who persecuted me. Jesus was there then just as he is now, but I believe that whenever we face trials against the enemy, that we would all feel much safer and less afraid, knowing that our Father was going before us.

Everyone deserves to feel protected.

He arose! 

The Lord! He arose! He did, he did!! Weren’t you so full of joy and peace this morning? The savior, perfect and unblemished became sin, so that you and I can have the opportunity to live eternally in heaven. How amazing?! 

Im so thankful for Jesus. I’m thankful that he came and died for me and because he did, I can spend my life knowing I have a purpose. I know that God is with me wherever I go. God has created me for specific things and duties, just as he has for you. Jesus wasn’t just a regular person doing regular things, he was a magnificent man with an extraordinary purpose, doing extraordinary things! 

I hope you all believe this with all your hearts and that you can go into tomorrow with purpose and peace that the Lord did rise again and that he has many wonderful things planned for you! 

Happy Easter! ✝

What the world tells us. 

Society tells us that we have to be with a man to be happy. From the time were young girls we start planning the perfect wedding with our perfect groom. This is all because of what were surrounded with from the beginning. We must learn that it’s gods timing not our own and that we can’t rush any of it. Whether we’re cool and calm about it, or if we shout at him daily, it doesn’t change anything. God is most likely telling you to wait. Look to him for peace and hope. God will bring you your prince, or princess, whenever the time is right!

Bad days. 

Sometimes we just have one of those days. You know the ones where you feel like you’ve hit rock bottom, nothing you say is right, and the world comes crashing? People you thought you could trust are turning on you. Or something you thought you did a great job on causes problems down the line because you forgot some details. You sit and struggle with the why and how…you feel like it’s all your fault. You wonder why is God doing this? God where are you at?? Moments, days, or maybe hours later, you remember “It is written: ‘Man shall not live on bread alone, but on every word that comes from the mouth of God.’ ” ‭‭Matthew‬ ‭4:4‬ ‭NIV‬‬ We are not alone. We are not alone everyone!! What a relief! Even when we feel helpless and empty, tired and afraid God is right there to remind me and you, to trust Him. He’s got it covered. There’s nothing at all left for you or I to be so afraid of or stressed over because he already conquered it all, on the cross.
This was my day today in a nutshell. Someone I thought I could count on let me down, and didn’t care. Something I thought I did well on, had mistakes. I spent the entire day, sad and feeling alone, wondering why? It took until just now when I came across this verse to feel peace again. IPeople…are only human. Thankfully…our God isn’t. All is not well in my world again, but I can feel gods presence, so I know he is with me. That’s all I’ve ever needed.

Soul mates. 

Everyone’s looking for that one true love…the one who completes their soul…but the thing is no one on earth can ever do that. Only God. I don’t know that I believe we have “the one” but God wants us with someone who together we can be broken. Broken together. Yet when you’re together, you grow his kingdom. It doesn’t have to be big, but it could be, just something. Maybe your something is a couples bible study, or maybe it’s to go on a mission trip together. I can’t say for anyone because only God could really tell you. I just know that for men and women (myself included) that it’s pressured and stressful to find someone to spend your life with. Most aren’t Lucky enough to meet one person, date, and get married. Most people go through heartache after heartache. Through my recent one, I’m learning. I’m far from having it figured out…I’m no expert…but that’s what I am pretty sure is true. God just wants to be honored.

Don’t chase men. 

Dont chase men. You know why? Because God has instilled in them to be hunters. This doesn’t just mean that they hunt for food or fun, they also “hunt” for women. Maybe it’s old fashioned but I still believe if God wants a man in my life, God will send him to pursue me. We will only end up hurt and angry if we try to make things happen when it isn’t gods plan. God already has a perfect plan, even if it’s scary we must wait until God says “there he is!” If we trust God in his judgement and timing, we will be blessed and happy with the outcome.

Following God isn’t glamourous. 

Following God won’t always be glamourous. It won’t always be noteworthy or exciting, but it will be well worth it. It doesn’t matter what it is. Whether God moves you to share a verse with a friend or if he pushes you to move across the world, both acts are equally as great in his eyes. God knows when you are pursuing him and following him. If you are trying your best to answer his calling for you and your motives are to glorify God, he will be very happy.
I just started a new job, my first adult job. It isn’t what I ever thought I’d be doing at all and it isn’t where I thought I’d be, but it was Gods plan for me to be working here. There were many people who applied, but yet they picked me. A fresh outta college millennial with a long career ahead. I never once prayed that I’d get the job, I only prayed that i’d be fulfilling God’s plan for me. I know that this is God’s plan for me, otherwise I’d never been offered the position. God placed me there strategically, and I will answer his callings when they arise. So far, i have no idea why he wanted me there, but I will delight in his plan for me. It’s exciting and scary, but I will follow God wherever he leads me.
I hope that you all know that no matter where God leads you and whatever his motions in your life that you will answer the calling and know that it’s all important to God.

Our place. 

“Follow God’s example, therefore, as dearly loved children and walk in the way of love, just as Christ loved us and gave himself up for us as a fragrant offering and sacrifice to God.”‭‭Ephesians‬ ‭5:1-2‬ ‭NIV‬‬
In a world full of hate and misunderstanding, we all must remember to just love one another the best that we can. Bad things are going to happen, but it’s our job to look to God when they do and trust that his ways are better than ours. It seems like shootings are becoming more and more common everyday, just as Christians seem to be a larger target. God knows what he’s doing here even though we only see danger and death. God will use these events to guide us, to change lives, to open eyes, and even to bring people to him. God wants to be glorified and he will be. The best thing we can do to help is to pray for all those worldwide being targeted for their faith. God will guide our hearts to understanding and also as to where our place is in this messy world. No one can stop now. We must all walk in faith.

Waiting on Jesus. 

I’d rather wait on Jesus in the valley than venture through life on my own. 
I’ve not felt much noise in terms of Jesus this week. He’s been very quiet and I’m always bothered by this. It’s a feeling of being totally alone and scared, but I know in my mind that God is always near, so why at times doesn’t it feel that way? I’ve prayed and prayed and called out to him only to hear nothing in return. I’ve spoke of him and read of him, but nothing. Sometimes God feels very near to me, and I absolutely love that feeling. Sometimes it’s as though I could reach out and hug him right there. 
I think the reason this happens is because I didn’t do a very good job of putting God first this week. Whenever God feels pushed to the back and behind other things going on in our lives I think he just steps back and waits on us to wake up. This week I had a job interview, a severe head cold, and some relationship matters to handle. In the mix of all of this, I failed to open my Bible or to truly truly try to connect with him. For that I am very sorry.
Last night I stopped before bed to call out to him. You know what happened? He was near, very near. God heard me and he comforted me. I was feeling very angry for things happening in my personal life, and I called out to God only to find that anger being replaced with peace and happiness. I know that many people would wonder how I can stay so happy and joyful in such a mess of a time, but I find that peace doesn’t come from things or people, peace comes from above. Only God can comfort us and make us whole again when we only see pieces on the ground. Only God can make us complete. Only God can change our lives. The thing about all of this is that we must have FAITH. 
“…If you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move.Nothing will be impossible for you.” Matthew 17:20
I ask that you all will have faith today in God’s timing and plans. I ask that you will always remember to look to him because he can see the beginning and the end. God knows what is best for you and he knows what’s ahead for you. God will not leave you or hurt you. God loves you and he only wants the best for you. Sometimes you have to go through a little bit of fire to shine.Whatever you’re facing, you can do it! Trust God and have faith brothers and sisters!